Grief.

“If what I am experiencing is heartbreak, then grieving is inevitable.” – Brene’ Brown Yesterday was the 8th anniversary of Shaun’s death. Should we even call it an anniversary? I mean, Webster’s defines an anniversary as this: Definition of anniversary 1: the annual recurrence of a date marking a notable event a wedding anniversary broadly: a date that follows…

Shell-shocked.

Well, this is gonna be short. I didn’t plan this blog, she just kinda flew out my fingertips. I have had a good day. No major issues. Hiccups. All good. Then, out of nowhere, “WHAM!” I got slammed by a flood of emotions that I didn’t see coming. Long story short – in a previous…

So. Somebody is dead.

Ok, I know that this sounds horrible, and it is. But, I am a plethora of knowledge on this subject, and I am here to help you. I have had alot of close friends, ask me, “What do I say or do? What should I bring?” – when they find out someone has passed away….

He has now been gone for 4 years….

I had a post written previously, that I was gonna post today.  But, on my drive home – I changed my mind.  So if it seems like it rambles, I apologize in advance.  I had the benefit of telling a guy I worked with today, about Shaun.  Telling him that today was the anniversary of…

Never Surrender. Yep, I am gonna quote Tupac.

May 2nd would have been Shaun’s 33rd birthday.  My heart always feels heavy when I hear the word, May. Anyone who knew Shaun, knew he loved his birthday.  Another reason we were a great pair.  We loved our own birthdays.  It’s like your own little personal holiday.  Started the day with breakfast in bed –…

The heart of my little boy.

I am the mom to a fourteen year old boy, and 10 year old girl, and a three year old little boy.  I love my children in many different ways.  My oldest was my first child, he grew up with me in a way.  My daughter came next, and she is like my little mini…

Promise of a New Day….

Every night when we go to sleep – we have the promise of a new day.  It’s a promise – not a guarantee.  We  know that the sun will rise, the earth will rotate,  somewhere it will rain, somewhere the sun will shine.  But we don’t know, what the new day will bring.  I have…

Fly, Raven, Fly…

So, just to start this off… It’s probably obvious that I have done quite a bit of thinking this week.  This goes hand in hand with quite a bit of crying.  I can’t seem to do one, without the other following suit.  But,  one thing that I keep thinking about is how drastically my life…